Surprise!

 

Have you ever been crippled by your own fear?  Have you ever felt paralyzed by the unknown?  Or by what you've dreamed up in your mind?  Today was a HUGE day for me.  I was face to face with my fear and it was not a place that I wanted to be. 

 

As I sat in the doctors office listening to my doctor, my husband tried to graceously rub my back to console me.  But it wasn't helping.  I could feel the fear gripping me.  There was nothing that I could do to help ease the panic.  I cried.  I sobbed.  All because of the unknown...

 

During the month of July, we found out that we were pregnant.  Expecting.  And our minds are still swirling at the miracle that has happened.  We never anticipated having another child on our own.  We never thought that my body was capable of getting pregnant...and we never expected it to happen now. 

 

Today's appointment went well and we opted to have an ultrasound done afterall.  That has been my fear all along.  Having an ultrasound and possibly going through the heartache that we have been through with the prior pregnancies was crippling to me.  I was fearful of the unknown.  I was fearful of what has happened in the past.

 

Sobbing my way through the appointment was not where I should have been.  My head knew that God has this all under control...but my heart was not connecting the same way.  As I sat in the room with my husband, we both talked about a local family that recently lost their 10 year daughter.  With tears streaming down my face, I knew that if this family was gracefully handling their circumstance than I could handle the fear that I needed to overcome.

 

With hands clutched and my eyes closed, the technician started the external ultrasound.  Within seconds she said "this is completely viable...look at the heart beating".  I immediately sat up and opened my eyes to see the screen.  There he/she was.  My child.  And he/she was fine.  The little legs were kicking and little arms were moving too.  And a new type of tear came rolling down my cheek.  Thank you, Lord.  Thank you!

 

 



 

Isaiah 41:13~ I am the Lord your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.

COFFEE FRAPPES!!!

 

 

Thick, coffee frappes seem to be getting me through the days...

 

As summer unwinds, what seems to be your 'thing'?!?

PQ's Prayer Request...ECUADOR

 

For the past month and a half, PQ has been prayerfully considering a mission trip for next summer.  After seeing his best buds, Scholastic and Duck Egg, head out of the country on a trip this past summer with Teen Missions International, he has been eager to serve in his own capacity next summer.  When the 2014 list came out while his buds were still on the mission field, PQ immediately decided upon the biking trip to Ecuador. 

As TMI's website describes, the preteens will be sharing Christ’s love through puppets, drama and music as they ride their bikes from village to village throughout the Andes Mountains. During free time they will enjoy playing with the children who come to the base for Sunday school. Housing will be in dorms with showers available; laundry will be done using buckets.

Because it will be winter and the elevation could cause some respitory issues, PQ recently asked if he could meet with his Allergy and Asthma doctor to discuss whether his asthma would prohibit him from the trip.  His doctor gave him full medical clearance for the trip and did not feel that their was any medical reason that PQ could not go on the trip.  His doctor was extremely excited for PQ and PQ was beyond thrilled to hear that he was cleared medically for the trip.

So, my friends....we would LOVE to have your prayers as the next few months unfold.  PQ would appreciate prayers to raise financial support for the trip.  He will need to raise ~$3000.  And I would appreciate prayers for complete surrender and trust.  I know that this trip will change his life.  I know that this trip will impact the way PQ sees the world.  And I know that God has placed this desire on his heart for a reason. 

In a recent text message, my friend said "2014 is going to be a BIG YEAR"....you can say that again!!!

 

Say What: What are you eating?!?

At dinner this evening at Titi and Uncle L's house, the following took place:

ME: Sugar, what are you eating?!?

SUGAR: Eat...hmjsirkdpabetp....eat....asksdibnnfksings....eat... (pointing to the livingroom where she was intrigued by a bunch of D-Dawg's personnal stuff)

ME: (kiddingly) Are you eating D-Dawg's deodorant?!?!

*SILENCE*

ME: (Still joking) Uncle L, can you smell her breath?

Uncle L:  Yup...that's what it is.

*LAUGHTER ABOUNDS*

You got it.  Miss Sugar dug her teeth into D-Dawg's AXE deodorant and apparently had some stuck on the back of her front teeth.  Hence the reason why she was 'chewing' on something.  So nasty!!!

Say What- Song Lyrics

You all know the feeling that I'm about to describe...

Imagine yourself sitting in church.  The next worship song starts to play and the lyrics pop up on the screen so you can follow them.  The words are pretty...and then the words become real.  The words speak Truth to you.  The words address that very 'thing' that you're struggling with.  And as you sing, you fight back tears knowing that He is good and He is in control.  It's easy to say that you think He's in control.  But when you really know it to be true in your heart (and you have a sense of peace about it), there's beauty in that.

Lyric: "What You complete is completely done."

Before any of the unexpected came to be, He completed those plans.  He wrote my story.  He knows how all of this will go.  He completed my story well before it will ever become known to me.  I know He's in control.  I know He has me in the palm of His hand.  I know He knows.

And there is beauty in that...

Handing Him My Fear...